Tuesday, July 16, 2013

The stars fell
one by one into his eyes and burnt.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

From my messy thoughts notebook.


I want to get to know you; I want to know how you drink your coffee, how you look under the dusk light, how you smell, how you laugh, how you walk. I want to feel the tendency of your warm hug that would let me blooms like spring floret between your arms.
I want to see the way the moon reflects on your eyes, the way you mumble your favorite song. I feel the need to go digging into your soul  for I admire you , I admire you a lot That made my heart flutter , and I wish to explore you like no one ever did for I know I would lose myself in you.
-Me

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I will cover you with love when next I see you, with caresses, with ecstasy. I want to gorge you with all the joys of the flesh, so that you faint and die. I want you to be amazed by me, and to confess to yourself that you had never even dreamed of such transports… When you are old, I want you to recall those few hours, I want your dry bones to quiver with joy when you think of them."





Sunday, January 27, 2013

Afternoon tea.


Day one.
My afternoon tea with a cinnamon butter cookies and my personal notebook.
In the notebook, there I wrote something about a full moon night and on that day I took a walk alone admiring the sky and this leaf full on me so I kept it
The last line was "The day I'm going to kiss your lips is the day I'm going to taste the flowers for the first time under beige moon"

 So I'm going to do this, I will take a photo of every detail that makes me happy, personal photos, and my own things I use daily. To appreciate the beauty of the little things.
 

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

A girl who writes, this is perfection.

Date a girl who may never wear completely clean clothes, because of coffee stains and ink spills. She’ll have many problems with her closet space, and her laptop is never boring because there are so many words, so many worlds that she’s cluttered amidst the space. Tabs open filled with obscure and popular music. Interesting factoids about Catherine the Great, and the immortality of jellyfish. Laugh it off when she tells you that she forgot to clean her room, that her clothes are lost among the binders so it’ll take her longer to get ready, that her shoes hidden under the mountain of broken Bic pens and the refurbished laptop that she’s saved for ever since she was twelve.

Kiss her under the lamppost, when it’s raining. Tell her your definition of love.


Find a girl who writes. You’ll know that she has a sense of humor, a sense of empathy and kindness, and that she will dream up worlds, universes for you. She’s the one with the faintest of shadows underneath her eyelids, the one who smells of coffee and Coca-cola and jasmine green tea. You see that girl hunched over a notebook. That’s the writer. With her fingers occasionally smudged with charcoal, with ink that will travel onto your hands when you interlock your fingers with hers. She will never stop, churning out adventures, of traitors and heroes. Darkness and light. Fear and love. That’s the writer. She can never resist filling a blank page with words, whatever the color of the page is.


She’s the girl reading while waiting for her coffee and tea. She’s the quiet girl with her music turned up loud (or impossibly quiet), separating the two of you by an ocean of crescendos and decrescendos as she’s thinking of the perfect words. If you take a peek at her cup, the tea or coffee’s already cold. She’s already forgotten it.


Use a pick-up line with her if she doesn’t look to busy.


If she raises her head, offer to buy her another cup of coffee. Or of tea. She’ll repay you with stories. If she closes her laptop, give her your critique of Tolstoy, and your best theories of Hannibal and the Crossing. Tell her your characters, your dreams, and ask if she gotten through her first novel.


It is hard to date a girl who writes. But be patient with her. Give her books for her birthday, pretty notebooks for Christmas and for anniversaries, moleskins and bookmarks and many, many books. Give her the gift of words, for writers are talkative people, and they are verbose in their thanks. Let her know that you’re behind her every step of the way, for the lines between fiction and reality are fluid.

She’ll give you a chance.
Don’t lie to her. She’ll understand the syntax behind your words. She’ll be disappointed by your lies, but a girl who writes will understand. She’ll understand that sometimes even the greatest heroes fail, and that happy endings take time, both in fiction and reality. She’s realistic. A girl who writes isn’t impatient; she will understand your flaws. She will cherish them, because a girl who writes will understand plot. She’ll understand that endings happen for better or for worst.

A girl who writes will not expect perfection from you. Her narratives are rich; her characters are multifaceted because of interesting flaws. She’ll understand that a good book does not have perfect characters; villains and tragic flaws are the salt of books. She’ll understand trouble, because it spices up her story. No author wants an invincible hero; the girl who writes will understand that you are only human.


Be her compatriot, be her darling, her love, her dream, her world.


If you find a girl who writes, keep her close. If you find her at two AM, typing furiously, the neon gaze of the light illuminating her furrowed forehead, place a blanket gently on her so that she does not catch a chill. Make her a pot of tea, and sit with her. You may lose her to her world for a few moments, but she will come back to you, brimming with treasure. You will believe in her every single time, the two of you illuminated only by the computer screen, but invincible in the darkness.


She is your Shahrazad. When you are afraid of the dark, she will guide you, her words turning into lanterns, turning into lights and stars and candles that will guide you through your darkest times. She’ll be the one to save you.


She’ll whisk you away on a hot air balloon, and you will be smitten with her. She’s mischievous, frisky, yet she’s quiet, and when she has to kill off a lovely character, when she cries, hold her and tell her that it will be alright.


You will propose to her. Maybe on a boat in the ocean, maybe in a little cottage in the Appalachian Mountains. Maybe in New York City. Maybe Chicago. Baltimore. Maybe outside her publisher’s office. Because she’s radiant, wherever she goes. Maybe even outside of a cinema where the two of you kiss in the rain. She’ll say that it is overused and clich├ęd, but the glint in her eyes will tell you that she appreciates it all the same.


You will smile hard as she talks a mile a second, and your heart will skip a beat when she holds your hand and she will write stories of your lives together. She’ll hold you close and whisper secrets into your ears. She’s lovely, remember that. She’s self made and she’s brilliant. Her names for the children might be terrible, but you’ll be okay with that. A girl who writes will tell your children fantastical stories.



Because that is the best part about a girl who writes. She has imagination and she has courage, and it will be enough. She’ll save you in the oceans of her dreams, and she’ll be your catharsis and your 11:11. She’ll be your firebird and she’ll be your knight, and she’ll become your world, in the curve of her smile, in the hazel of her eye the half-dimple on her face, the words that are pouring out of her, a torrent, a wave, a crescendo – so many sensations that you will be left breathless by a girl who writes.



Maybe she’s not the best at grammar, but that is okay.


Date a girl who writes because you deserve it. She’s witty, she’s empathetic, enigmatic at times, and she’s lovely. She’s got the most colorful life. She may be living in NYC or she may be living in a small cottage. Date a girl who writes because a girl who writes reads.


A girl who writes will understand reality. She’ll be infuriating at times, and maybe sometimes you will hate her. Sometimes she will hate you too. But a girl who writes understands human nature, and she will understand that you are weak. She will not leave on the Midnight Train the first moment that things go sour. She will understand that real life isn’t like a story, because while she works in stories, she lives in reality.


Date a girl who writes.


Because there is nothing better then a girl who writes.


Author unknown

Thursday, January 17, 2013


We confuse between the idea of loving someone justly and be very fond of that person, liking someone or " crush into someone" physically or emotionally because they preserve the qualities we are looking for doesn't mean necessary enough to create a love bond but the sharing, the talking , the exchange of feeling to one another what makes people really fall in love and how eager the other partner to give you back your sweet crush bites will lift you the first step of a very long way to affection, and on the  way you will see appreciation, respect, care, acceptation, scarify, secure and lots of heart aching. So you can easily be fond of someone but unlikely to fall in love that effortlessly.