Monday, December 14, 2009


Today: well I'm wearing very colorful unmatched pair of socks and I made myself a cup of hot chocolate … it still freezing here,

I realize that I spend 40 minute every day alone in the subway, taking the Metro to my college doing nothing but staring at those so unfamiliar million faces around me with my rock songs playing in my ears. Its weird knowing that each face of them have his own life, own secrets and own problems, they are so different in shape, sound and color.

I really wish that it could snow here

Really snow … that would make the whole city a sparking crystal with colorful lights at the night everywhere … that would be magical … I wander if I will ever have the chance to walk on snow and have a snow fight with my friends.

I really wish that I could spend more times with my friends I really miss them, in winter me and my best friends used to have a walk at night eating ice-cream, people used to stare at us if we were paunch of mad girls for eating ice-cream in the coldest night and we used to fill the street with our laughter I missed that feeling

I have this huge hole in my chest and its getting bigger every time I cry …and I do cry a lot I became very emotional those day I mean VERY emotional not only crying for watching a movie or hearing a song but also crying while watching cartoons yeah I know freaky .

I also cry while watching some people happy I don’t envy them or something! It just I wander if they really appreciate the happiness they have! … We truly wouldn't appreciate happiness with sadness

I get this awful feeling at the night before sleeping the lonely feeling… its really waste of time if you are not with the one you love.

I wanna write about forgiveness, I really love, appreciate, respect forgiveness it's so powerful.