Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Dig deep in Me !!


at some point I actually believe that u can grip my heart back and thrill me with your action but it's seem like I was wrong I'm just fallen out of love some how.

I thought u would take advantage of this chance 2 show me how much u need me to let me realize how much u grow up to make things better than they had ever been before.

Last time I saw you I was leaving with hope I had faith in you. You were smiling and I thought that's it… that's it the sun will shine soon in that moment I was actually dancing screaming from happiness. He finally understands he finally accept me for who I'm with my madness moments with my silent moments with my passion with my uniqueness with all my little things. Then days goes by and we were talking, I intend to smile I intend to show that I have hope in you but my heart aches more and more every time we finish our call I guess I was waiting and it felt like dancing alone even with out music we were in different worlds separated… I was hoping and you were there just watching I couldn't understand why you still not the man I want why he is acting like that? I'm totally confused and that's shock me… kills me I can't figure out my man my only prince I have ever lived with in my fairy tale for more than 5 years. My best friend told me I grow up my needs are growing too I need so much more than words I need action I need to see a change , need 2 understand much more .I need some reasons why you are doing that?

And what freaks me out that I loved you I didn’t try to fix you because I accepted u for who you are. But could you for one sec see me for who I'm. Could u dig deep inside of me? Could u love the darkest thing in me! Could u love the craziest thing I have ever done? Could u hear me ... I have been singing for a while waiting for you to listen. I have stayed enough to notice me. But still I'm sure u didn't dig enough 2 know the true me? Do you have the effort or are you just okay with what you know because that's not enough for me I need more and that's not selfish its intimacy I'm seeking here and that's what really counts! I did for you much more I could live a whole day for you and no one will notice I know all about u I know how u sleep . How u drink, Eat .how even walk I can tell you what you did for a whole day I loved your darkest secrets I listen to your little breath between the words. Was that not enough for you? Even so I'm still trying I'm still digging I'm still there even in my worst time in my life.


nahla ali

3 comments:

  1. That was.. touching. I wonder how it feels to experience all this!

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  2. oh thank you :) so sweet 4m u !!
    well its complicated ..some how sad :( !!

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  3. I wanna read the time traveler's wife.
    and don't ask why I am writing this below your post, its just the simplest way to reach you out at the moment, since there's no fb or msn...
    and I miss you btw,

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