Your light bring me home, because you see with your sensation, you being to feel like my home, but like the cotton candy the moment I touch your soul, you melt away beautifully. Would you stay much more? Because you do feel like home.
He is the ultimate happiness of every morning , he is the way I love to , the way I feel , they way everything as it seem he is the every miraculous spirit I have ever dream, he knows the real the unreal and even the inbetween , my love, you will always and still and will ever be something more than I have ever fallen for, for you again I shall say you discern it all , your ridiculously little niceties is all I want to pact , you know how to draw up the line when days drift it down, you create with your laughter and delightful seen , my smile.
I know I shall never reveal more for that I will never be, because you , and only you my incredibility fairy just for me , and for writing about you shall take more I have been given to live , and for how long I have given to live will never be fair-lived only when my skin is attached to yours , how beautifully this YOU because its just describing you, so grief me away with you till the wildest tide takes us together and for no eye could take the singing rainbow inside our wits , the shells , the sand , the sweet moon , the light, you propel just for me! To the end that shall ever ends because you again my love is infinitely loved .so kiss me my cherrybeans.
Things I want in 2011 :
· I wanna write , blog , read more , I really want to read beautiful, inspiring books.
· Find the one who I can truly be my self with, the one who bright my day with just a smile.
· Spend more time beside the sea. I miss the sea.
· Pass this year in college with great grades.
· Spend more time with family and friends.
· Taking care of myself more.
· Speak espanol perfectly.
· Find new simple thing I love.
· Try something new and just forget all those fear! I'm thick of fears.
· Give myself a chance to bloom! And yea people are not judging all the time.
· More and more music.
· Oh and movies, inspiring ones.
· Beautiful simple jewelries.
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feliz año nuevo
Is it already the last month of the year? I really wanna end this year additionally begin a fresh new one thou I had a great things this year I finally get into the university I wanted and studying something I dreamed of, Español :D yes I actually can speak a little Spanish now it's dazzling however it keeps me busy like hell no time for anything just going to the Uni everyday getting back home for studying and eventually sleeping no time for writing , blogging but I missed writing, I missed holding the pen writing what I feel and thoughts, I normally write allness in my note first then copy them here, I do not know why but there is something about the pen that makes you fall inlove with writing in how you can draw the word according to your feeling!
oh and its getting cold here which something I love I have no clue why people hate winter and cold, it's always a chance to let out your warm feeling everything become magical people are more relaxed , friends are so closer and cozy , ice cream taste better I LOVE ICE CREAM IN WINTER! The house become so warm, the streets, tress, everything get cleaned and sparking from the rain OH THE SOUND OF RAIN! Clothes become so trendy and classy I missed all of that! Oh anther thing such a messy random post :D but I know something I have been writing my diary for more than five years and just today I realized that I am doing it wrong I just write my affection, thoughts, dreams and goals I do not write what I did yesterday or what happened last week I do not write about the people around me thou I am every fond about writing about souls, people and friends I WANNA WRITE ABOUT PEOPLE. Weird me that is something to think about! How do you write your diary??
I found this
from Sarah " one long road " and its beautiful.
Sometime they just forget that writers are just like pianist they let the melody lead you to the feeling. listen to the melody between our words.
Some people say I look gloomy those days, but I'm not by any mean sad, its just I get this feeling especially around people loud voices , lots of faces turn gradually into colors , shadows into silence … like a theme song I enjoy it from far away , I just have too many thoughts covering my presence , but I'm okay more than okay I finally getting what I really want , finally realizing too many things in life I never dream of, I'm finally not numb anymore , I once again believing in myself.
And I can see it, I saw it long ago the sadness shadow at the corner of your smile in every capture, the hidden anguish of not being "her" developing from negative inside the frame with you, and I shall never be, not any more.
Dear you.
I know you're just a memory I'm not complaining, its just something must be said, something I owe it to my self, something I got to get it out of my chest because its heavy really heavy and I can't take it anymore.
It was a habit daydream about you before going to sleep precious moments, but for a while I have been blocking my mind not that I want to think about you its just that I regretted enough getting back. Recently I tried to remember those moments but something is wrong, something new I can't remember your face! I tried so hard to remember, your facial figures are blank to me they doesn't fit into my dreams anymore I can't find you I really can't even catch your smell, I used to memorized those things for the past 8 years of my life. How ever the odds I sometimes find you in my sleeping dreams , couple days ago I dreamed the most beautiful dream about you it was like magic but like smoke you're gone before I know it, on that day you called and I was astonished not to mention afraid. Every time I dream about you, you call! I hate that I love the bond between us I just hate it because it maybe existed but its not working for me anymore, I'm sorry now I see clearly that you only existed in my dreams because in reality you wasn't the right one.
Dear friends
I know sometime I'm hard to figure out, but believe me all my beliefs are really simple. Sticking to it is the complex part, the world in my eyes is different than yours and what made me write this letter is the look in your eyes. I saw how weak you see me and it disappointed me to the extremes because I'm not by any means weak YOU BROKE ME but I still on my feet believing and holding on of however I believe, you kept blaming me for my forgiveness for my behavior for my smile, don't you see how strong to stand and smile when you aching inside don't you just see beyond silly words , fights ITS NOT ABOUT THAT, its about me I forgive I smile I'm keeping my soul a whole, I was silent for a while to hoping that you would understand but believe me when I say there is always satisfaction in scarification and this is me.
Dear caller
It's harder on me to ignore you, I'm not that person! But I'm doing the best for us. I know you said you want me beside where ever or how every it will take but as I told you before it wouldn't work you survived without me for more than four years and you will survive again, I can't do that to you again I'm sorry. It’s the best for you.
Dear stranger
I sent you a message by wrong and you called I told you I'm sorry wrong number, you said its okay then you sent me a happy feast message even when you don't know me, thank you for believing that everyone need a smile even if they were strangers.
Dear followers
I LOVE YOU. You do mean the world to me
And I want to thank each of you for following me
You're the reason that I write =) .
| Some people smile to be memorized and other smile to forget the kind of smiles they miss. but you're my kind of smile. |
I hear the stars whispering at the night
I hear the tress talking behind the leaves.
My mind bursting of million marvels and I'm naive how to light the sky along with.
Pens are writing empty envelopes through rainbow veins. I glue them over every shape of creation, and I wonder if I have been created differently something much more simpler, I have no roots to stand still nor I know where my thoughts , words come from, define me because gravity doesn't limit me from tasting the sky.
But I will be your sign of love
Your sign of beauty
And if I would be something else I would be tree, a sea, a breeze in summer time, eyes would fall on me like rain in windy nocturnal.
I would embrace you with my shadow
Splash you with my salt
I would be your brief.
I was created differently I'm the prevalent secret on earth, a walking miracle ,I only offer a smile, a sparkling color in my eyes through them you see a seashell to pick , a cherry tree to taste, and laughter among many memories,
My hair is bright like the sun, my soul is an ocean with hidden sand castle of thoughts, and I'm fragile cotton flower I'm human.
Because We long for cozy hot teapot with sweet company, a rush of bicycle race with a precious pal, or a glimpse of an admirer's eyes, our souls are fasten within our dreams locked in some where behind those fears WE ARE OUR SOULS I shall say to you. Watch the waves, the clouds, and the sun
They all lean down to you. Because you're the walking miracle. you're component of the universe that's why I listen to the sea where I belong , I belong to natural , I belong to you and because you just took a part of me and I took a piece of you right now right here reading this, We are one and for once stop hurting me or them or anybody else you only hurting your piece within me stop erasing your existence so pause listen to the universe , touch the sky , smell love, and drink happiness choose to be such a shooting star people will always look out in every sky .Reveal yourself to natural. This is more than life. the existence part forever after, the magic within the world the missing link to your contentment. Your soul.
When sun melts hanging dreams of the night, when it breaks through your window lighting a pile at the dark corner… torn letters, finished ink ,unwritten words all over your head and other written on walls ..Loud silence racing the illumination, shabby pictures covering the floor fighting the dust in vain, empty bed and wrecked clock… a classic murder scene of a broken heart.
That’s when I realized sometimes things have to be what it has to be. Sometimes things are not what they seemed to be, and sometimes things are not true!
Rainbow I love the rainbow but after all it’s a delusion. It’s a reaction of sun with drops of water the rain …my lovely rain, dreams I love dreams but after all they are only in my head another delusion of a million ideas in my unconscious mind.
They seem so unreal and yet with billion fans around the world. Love… my biggest delusion, disappointed in this moment, some believe in love and other just don’t. And I’m in the middle of no where but dose it has to be so real touchable to believe in? Can we just touch our dreams in so many other ways than material things?
Right now I just have to believe and let things have their own way after all everything starts from a point of nowhere. and make sure if got disappointed one day from someone walked away they don't have the right to take what you believe in with them.
I don’t know why people think too much before showing a sign of love!! Terrified of rejection maybe? Or anxious of not receiving back the same love? But the whole point is to love and later for sure you will be loved by someone or everyone throw it at the world and it will come back to you in a way or another! To love is more effortless than most people imagine it could be just a smile or a caring touch! I heard before "tried too successfully" that when you pick up the phone for someone you like you have to SMILE they will hear it in your voice and it will send a message to their brain that you're happy enough to hear their voice and enjoy one hell of good conversation! Simple and easy but people used to forget those petite details...which actually make the different in life so then life become hollow and alike ..
a friend of mine which I miss really dearly told me before that love is an ability differ from human to another in which I absolutely agree .. In that case having an ability means you have the skills to grow! It can be bigger for sure stronger and more creative!
So expand your love ability, the world need your love you were born with it! So why not use it!! Give a face lift for someone today :)
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